I am a person of weird interest-to self reflect and giving moments only to self. It can be a good or bad thing at times,depending on the moments and length of time.
When I closed my eyes this time.. memories popped up, from primary school memories to high school memories to the latest stage of my life. But one particular memory brought me to this passage of words, having the need to express, it's the sparkle in someone's eyes.
How often do you see a person's eyes sparkle?
In fact I remember twice dearly- a man and a woman, or should I say a boy and a girl as they were not above18 at that time and they qualified as teenager
The sparkle in the eyes of the girl is when this cheerful fine lady who had always filled the room with laughter and brought cheerful atmosphere to wherever she goes, teared right in front of me when she received her test results. It was the tears of joy, victory and pride for having good grades under the encouragement of her dearest grandmother. She deserved it well and she showed me a different aspect of the world. Emotions don't only exist in movies.
It seems that after that.. sparkles rarely exist. Well, there is some for some. But it's just different and less genuine with age.
There are people in our lives that came just right pass by , brushing our shoulders side by side. Should it be retained? Or is it against the law of universe?
Earlier, I was on the plane and in fear of death. It was silly to think that way. But having heard of the news of the flight crash in Ukraine, I feared the same would happen. I dreamt that my flight landed somewhere at a military base. I glimpsed out the windows carefully and saw military jets. It was silly. But I feared for the moment. And I came to think about life, not immediately but I thought of what is missing in my life. Am I too careless and have I been focusing on the wrong stuffs? How did I reach this state of my life in all areas? Would things be different if I was given a second chance to live my life? To live the way I would if I could foresee the future? And I knew it would be the same. But maybe slight changes. There'd I go. The small changes I would have made. It takes some courage to admit what you feel deep down. Everybody loves second chances. Yet if it happened, I don't know what I want in life. I may know what I don't want in life but there is no certainty too. Hah so.. screw it since its a hypothetical question. :)
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