random thoughts

the future do always seem vague, and yet you won't really know how vague it is,
until you truly experienced it.
may it seem to be normal by an outsider, that of the diffident feeling growing in you,but in fact it is nothing but just a part of our growing stage, and yet you wondered of the millions of possibilities, that  if any other creature ever lived in this universe might just have the same feeling you had.

the ideas and constant supply of perceptions are eating you away. there are the pros and cons of it. in a way, i've grown, in a way i've changed. nobody is ever going to be the same,just as the lyrics of the song goes" if we ever meet again,i'll never be the same" though it is up to you on how you want to behave, which reminds me of the quote that have long been put up in my secondary school's discipline room, thoughts change your opinions and opinions change your attitude and attitude changes your personality, something like that.
 [random quote: clever people learn from their own mistakes and wise people learn from others' .]
weird but well-said.

life is full of struggles .we have to push ourselves hard to move forward & to keep pace with the society,
yet you were told by old men who lived decades on earth [perharps it was purely fiction, it was found in a book by Mitch Albom, if im not wronged, the book was 'Tuesdays with Morris'] that many young people were too self-concious on what is ahead of them that they didn't really get to stop and think carefully on what they were doing and why. for instances, businessmen, pacing on the pavement of wall street, rushing to their offices with a cup of coffee in their hand and an office bag on the other  in the morning, thinking of what to say and how to present their idea in their upcoming meetings, appointments or whatever that is important to them. that they didn't have the time to look at the world with a different perspective of view, to enjoy the sunrise and the beautiful mornings in the city and they'd only get to do that when they retired which is decades to achieve that, ceteris paribus, excluding the aspect of 'death'.
how long can you live on earth to enjoy the sunrise, how long can you live to devour your favourite desert? how long can you live to enjoy life?

perharps it is because that i am exposed to death.
it really hit me hard on the head, when i heard of the woman who was affected by AIDS and had to live on with the fear and worry that she might just die the next day and how her relationship with her parents just blew up, and how people around us might just leave without noticing, perharps it was the movie - Meet Joe Black that gave me an idea of 'what ifs' if you knew you are going to die.

perharps it is because part of me do not want to confront all this, thinking how easy it was going to be if i just be a little girl and leave all this worry to the others, and perharps this is the reason why they might think i am irresponsible. confrontation takes up courage and so does admitting your failures.

it is time to get thinking, school life has come to an end.
what do you want in life. and how you want to lead it, nobody can do it for you.
sitting back and relax might be the ultimate inviting option, but that is a trap laid by a devil.
and while you are closing your eyes, relaxing, slacking, procastinating,  the people around you are already racing to the top, that idea just scares you, didn't it?
we were talking about international, global , universal, people!
your country , your home, your school, your previous social circle, it is part of you, but you have to think from different views and get to know people.
that is the point of going overseas, not only to broaden your knowledge, but to widen your views, look further and think ahead.
that, is the greatest lesson i can get, and thank you mum and dad for that
though i have to stop here to get on with my math and chemistry. =)

this post may just be of random thoughts, oh well, just like the other 87 posts on this blog. okay, not that random perharps.
but, i don't mean to get these ideas to be submitted to any CEOs or editors to read it or anything. so, what is the point? well, i dont know!
Thinking too much about the right thing is appropriate, right?
pardon my grammatical error and wrong usage of vocabularies though.
signing off.